Fighting the Addiction

Published on August 16, 2008 By erathoniel In Life Journals

For a long time (many years, at least three [tells you a lot about my bookkeeping, doesn't it?]), I have been fighting an addiction to pornography. To tell you the truth, it had to end. It was my greatest shame in my life, and keeping it secret was killing me. I tried, over and over, to quit, but was deterred from help, and then, I honestly turned to God. Why? Because I am greater than the addiction. For years it had fed, often on a daily basis, aided by the internet and easy access to materials, but no more. For multiple days I have been free, and the desires have not returned. However, I still need prayer and support, because at any time I could relapse, as I have in the past, and I do not want to go back to a life of shame and secrecy like the one I have lead. So, please, say a prayer for me, and give me any advice you can give.

Comments (Page 2)

OckhamsRazor

on Aug 20, 2008

15? That explains a lot. If you were 40 I'd be worried. You've got a battle going inside you. On one side are hormones telling you to stick your penis in anything that will receive it. On the other you've got people telling you that having chemical reactions makes you a sinner.

Relax for crying out loud. Millions of decent people just jerked off to porn while I wrote this. You're normal.

erathoniel

on Aug 21, 2008

Get the computer the HELL out of your room, and put it in a public place, where there's plenty of foot traffic and you're never really alone, for crap's sake.

I'm an identical twin. I get plenty of foot traffic to my computer.

In that case, your parents need to restrict your computer usage.

Yes, but then I lose this blog, and numerous other things I'm not quite prepared to lose until it's a last resort.

Relax for crying out loud. Millions of decent people just jerked off to porn while I wrote this. You're normal.

Yes, but I have been accessing material that it is illegal for me to access, and I feel that I am better than succumbing to my nature.

Jythier

on Aug 21, 2008

I feel that I am better than succumbing to my nature.

Feel all you want, but you're not. Christ is. But He wants to be more important to you than your blog, and numerous other things.

erathoniel

on Aug 21, 2008

Feel all you want, but you're not. Christ is. But He wants to be more important to you than your blog, and numerous other things.

Yes, and He is how I've succeeded in this fight so far.

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